Thursday, March 29, 2012
It’s been quite a while since I posted and that’s because I have been holidaying down a big dark hole. Actually I have been in hospital. Since the beginning of this year I have just been going downhill in all sorts of ways with no idea why. I was experiencing a new kind of abdominal pain which to me resembled gall or pancreas problems and I was also having weird fevers, chills, weight loss, extra low body temperature and some other stuff which looked like thyroid issues. My GP ran some blood tests which showed some liver inflammation and high T4 and reverse T3 (thyroid levels). I felt so ill that I asked him if he could try to find a way to get me admitted to hospital for some proper tests. He contacted my old gastroenterologist who agreed to admit me to a private hospital. I was so relieved that I was getting access to proper investigation, but once the holiday began my enthusiasm quickly evaporated.
I had more tests and scans than I had hoped for and for that I am very grateful, however it was all conducted in what seemed like a whirlwind which left me feeling increasingly ill. Hospital is NOT a place to get rest. Your supposed rest is constantly interrupted by a steady stream of nurses checking obs, Dr’s consulting, cleaners cleaning and caterers bringing meals. By the end of my stay I was under the care of 6 different Dr’s who each would visit me daily for a chat … that is a LOT of conversation for someone who is so ill. At home I would usually only speak for a couple of minutes each day but in hospital it would have been a couple of hours each day. Exhausting … and of course all the tests and various sedations required etc were a massive assault on their own.
The outcome was no clue for the abdominal pain which sucks because now I am home it’s even worse and I still don’t know what it is, but, on a positive note they discovered a pre-cancerous nodule on my thyroid. This never would have been picked up if I hadn’t been in hospital and you can only imagine what would have happened if it had been left unchecked. The treatment was simply to remove half of my thyroid which was a quick and easy minimally invasive operation, however the general aesthetic totally knocked me for a six. I didn’t get the usual kind of crash I that I had expected but instead felt extremely weak and tired, not ‘fatigued’ in the usual way but tired. It’s been a few weeks since surgery and I am still really struggling … recovery is going to take some time. The downside to the thyroid nodule is that the Dr’s were adamant that it would have been causing NO symptoms at all and so what ever had been making me feel so rotten had nothing to do with my thyroid. I am not convinced that they were right because although I am still really ill the symptoms which I thought were thyroid have largely disappeared since surgery. Coincidence? I don’t know. Time will tell I guess.
It’s so nice to be home and be able to just lay in bed all day if I need to without being forced to engage with others … holidays are often over rated !