Friday, April 16, 2010
Night terrors, dreams and things
Since I first got really sick last year I have been having odd dreams and nightmares pretty much every night. I have spoken to a few other people who have had the same experience. Perhaps there is a link for us?? Mostly the dreams are just unsettling situations that I am unable to resolve so I often wake feeling on edge or upset etc.
Last night I had a dream that I think was of real significance which is why I am bothering to mention it. In my dream I had CFS and that was the first time I have dreamt of myself that way. Up till now when I appear in my dreams I am still well and able to do everything that I used to. This morning I feel like it must signify a true acceptance of ‘the new me’. I had been thinking about my life the other day and I came to the conclusion that I was still in denial to some extent …. Well maybe now I am not!! I think it’s a good sign. I really believe that in order to be happy you have to accept yourself as you are, whatever that may be. So, yep, it’s a good thing!!
The other thing I will mention but I don’t want to dwell on is that I think I am have a relapse. I had started feeling somewhat better with doing the graded exercise and my little art projects but in the last week I have really gone down hill again and I can’t see any obvious reason for it. Each day I have just felt worse than the day before. So I will sit back and rest and see where it goes…..